my self-portraits lol...

 I used to draw myself and what I was wearing one summer, and I feel like doing it again this fall... I think it'd be cool again seeing that i really need to improve my drawing skills lol but anywho....


yea I want to post them up on facebook and stuff
its not really good drawings but yea! oh well thanks for reading! 
and now for a story time!
























recently ive been trying to focus in getting into dental school. and i want to want it soo badly that i want to live a breathe dentistry and focusing getting into it.
but i am not really succeeding in living and breathing part
no matter how hard i try i get distracted by things in life that are not essential.
i dont want to disappoint myself and i am not ready to accept rejection by dental schools.


sometimes i just wonder how come everything in life is hard.
even tho i know i am fortunate i feel like it is hard to accomplish your dreams in life.


i want to be successful. i hope the people in the admission committee see something in me and accept me into their dental school.


hahaha i'll just keep trying hard enough...


oh btw school is not really going as well as i want it to be. 
i just wonder if i were a genius, 
would everything come as easy to them because they are smart? oh well....


to anyone that is reading this
THANK YOU.


and also i want to let you know that i am currently working on the movie that i made on friday...
i dont know how these youtube people do these editting stuff but its hard!
i got mad respect for people who can edit really good! 
ahahahaha 




till next time!
bye ~~♥ joufiii

Science Stuff: Intro to Oxidative Phosphorylation

I think it'd be nice if i did some summary of what im learning here in my blog... so i teach myself in written form and so i can test myself i really know it... I think that itll be fun! so here is my first subject oxidative phosphorylation...

oh btw this is not going to be a paper that needs to be third person with all that good stuff.. no i am going to do this my way of understanding these things. and if you dont believe it then check wikipedia ok?? hehehe here it goes...

The mitochondria produces ATP but how it is produced is the study in which oxidative phosphorylation explains to us how this happens. The energy source that the mitochondria gets from is the proton gradient which is maintained by the oxidation of NADH and FADH2. But this is no simple stuff... because the oxidation of these two involve in a series of catalytic components...

FACEBOOK like!

Hey whats up guys! who ever is over there! well i have a facebook fan thingy lol just made it idk i think it'll help me... oh well idk what im doing.. hahahaha well blogging is harder than i thought.. well if its a diary thing well i guess i can do this! well lets see.... wow i say a lot of welll hehehehehe ok... i think i shall inform to the internet that tomorrow i am going to be filming my contest video! thank you to anyone that reads this and putting up with my stuffff.... ^__^

AAAAHHHHH the DAT!

my DAT is coming soon...
so soon its going to be in 2 days!
ive been studying for it but it seems like i cant retain all the things that i learned!
im breaking out and im just hopeful that i could remember everything when the test day comes...
if your reading this.... hopefully you have read it before my test day...
so i plead to you to send me all your juicy good vibes and wish me luck on my test day!

My very first bloggin video

WOW! that was easy to do!
lol yup that video is online and ready to be watched! hahaha
i think its pretty awesome cause it show some short videos about my life
i guess putting yourself out there is kinda hard cause someone might attack your self confidence and just let you down
but oh well lets just hope that that will be kind to me! hehehe
ok bye!

DIY: Cheap Brush Guard Alternative

Hello people!
I just posted a do it yourself on youtube!

I filmed it using the Nikon D5100! Cool huh?

So this is my version of the Brush Guard. I know you can just buy it but i figured I dont really want to spend soo much money.

My solution was to come up with another way to dry my brushes. I came up with this idea after I saw the Michelle Phan video about the B.G. and I thought I needed to do that kind of stuff.


But I tell you, you dont need to spend that kind of money when you can just diy it... you know.

By using a regular bamboo sushi wrapping rolling thingy, I was able to dry my brushes the same way, and cheaper!
I found these wrappers at my kitchen and just used a regular hair tie to hold it together. I got this idea by seeing how chinese brushes were used to dry using like a paper mat.

So yea you can use anything you would like!
Have fun! And be creative!!!
^_^

Here's the URL:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnQ8BwHRmsk&feature=channel_video_title

Hello once again!

haaaayyyyy i need more time but i shouldnt cause i should be finished with it already!!! ahhhhh!!! applying to dental schools is hard work but i know it is do-able! I am soo grateful that i did it though, because even though i dont get in, i have experienced and challenged myself more and more. Although i dont feel as if i have accomplished anything i know that one day i am going to be a dentist and start working with my very own patients and going to mission trips to improve my community as well as other countries that need medical help. studying for the dat is all good but i really would like to come back to shadowing again... i miss it... huuu it keeps me motivated because i see what i want to be! but yea i need to study some quantitative reasoning sooo let me do another blog and yea! ^__^

Lagging...'-___-

I know I know....
But you know what motivates me?
Well I can say my passion but really its the determination to know more...
so instead of pouring myself into writing and expressing myself
i got to goooooooooooooooooo

Favorite January Make-up Looks

I don’t know but this January I’ve liked a lot of natural toned make up. I think it is because I am growing out of having a lot of color but then again, watching other youtube gurus kind of inspire me to determine what my next make up look would be.  Instead of using eyeliner I put different shades of brown on my lid creating a look that is rather elegant and natural.  Its all about the rosy cheeks as well, cold days makes my cheeks rosy and enhancing them is even better. I guess what I’m aiming for is a winter/ ready for spring look. I just love the look. So basically to sum it up, shades of browns on the eye, full and long lashes, rosy cheeks and a natural lip. I believe that if you don’t need foundation and your skin is just awesome don’t cover it up but if there is some places that you need covering then just cover it. But oh well I could only find one picture that shows the look I’ve been loving! I only have one cause I'm not really a picture whore lol. btw its also my profile pic in fb and oh I noticed is that I used eyeliner for this look but with or without eyeliner is all good (thats cause I was going to a concert that night!)

Scared

My facebook status says, "Scared therefore I never follow through." I said that cause I realized that yes I have all these ideas in my head saying, yea I should do this, I should do that but with some odd reason I never seem to talk the talk and walk the walk. Irritating to the fact that probably I would have accomplished more with what I have.
Its funny how I'm not even doing anything with my application process for dental school and I'm stressing out already!
Oh well somehow I feel like I should blog about this simple status that means a lot to me. Makes you somewhat wonder that other people are thinking about when they post things on facebook.

A NEW YEAR

A clean slate! LET'S DO THIS! 

I am very excited for this semester! Last year was not the year for me. Looking behind, I can see how far back I’ve fallen into.

Now, I am determined! I can feel that the tides have changed…

I’m pretty sure everyone is feeling the way I do.

I know this because my friend said last year was not really a very good year. He’s a superstitious man, and he said that since he was the year of the snake, the year of the tiger was not working for him because the snake and the tiger are enemies. Then he went through another scenario that the snake ‘people’ had a horrible time last year… Then I thought to myself, I’m a snake! And in one year’s time I could tell that somehow I wasn’t really putting my 100% effort into things, especially school. Although lets just say I am determined and nothing will stop me!

Sometimes I figure, what’s the reason for me to do this blogging thing? Is someone going to even look at this, pause, and read something I’m jibberjabbing about? But I guess like any modern day young adult like me can say that there is a certain fascination about documenting everything that they can online. But I guess that’s the adventure! Knowing that the world may one day realize you’re here, living and possibly alive. Immortalizing yourself, I think is a captivation of all this.

Moving on to more jibberjabbing… hmmm…

Its scary to find out your weaknesses, in a way because it can consume you and make you, you.  

I plan to break free from my weaknesses and start anew.

The thing that holds me back and the thing that propels me forward are stressful!

Sigh

I could go for more but I think I’ll stop here!